Right now, i m a bit confused and emtionally remixed ( sigh., ppl said my eng is so crappy cuz i m from hk)

On Thursday,

After my work at bout 4 ytd, i went over to my church Building and caught up with Gabby.
Two of us shared our STORY in terms of how god transformed us. At 7pm, we had our dance meeting,but it's slightly a bit different though.we had some bible study b4 we jumped into dance straight away. Purpose is to Get to know Jesus more and strengthen our foundations of our bible knowledge.das sth new to me hey. after that,we went into da brainstorming section for one of the christmas event. the theme is

What if Jesus was born in Hong Kong.
neiwaiz, we had a great tym last nite. we and da worship team went for dina and during dat tym, mah mum called and whispered to me

YOUR DADDY PROMISEd TO GO TO CHURCH WIF ME ON SUNDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
actually dad and mum were chatting at nite and my mum was crying and telling my dad dat she reli wanna meet my dad up in heaven.
my dad then promised to go to church with her. but he asked my mum not to force him and stuff.

i was so so so so so glad to noe dat my dad IS WILLING to attend church service FIRST in his lifetime. how wonderful it is!!!!!!it's a great picture to see.

God is doing something that we cant deny.

Today...................
my mum and dad went to see da doctor in de afternoon.
at the same time, as my boss-Elzabeth knows bout what's going on in my family.she's fully supportive and ive got a permission not to work today. later on i will write more bout her.

neiwaiz, i called my mum wen i woke up and i know the news like 3 days ago. so i know wot to expect.

she was telling me like YOU KNOW THE REsult, and just wait for the day to come.
FROm wot i heard from my aunti, she's was still hving da mindset and keep saying dat SHE"S WAITING FOR THE DAY DAT TWO of dem to die.
we went over to aunti's place to have dinna together and we chatted for pretty long cuz my aunti was suggesting my dad to make decision bout his business and what to do for the next step and hv some planning.

during the discussion. my dad was so pissed. cuz we keep asking him to put his health as his first priority. but he still keep going to work cuz he has to support dis family.
he didnt even put on mask wen he was working cuz it might affect his business.


As my dad is teaching my mum stuffs for his work so dat my mum can take over and he can rest at home.
but my mum is just like a CLOUD. cuz she doesnt know wot she's doing everyday. whenever my dad is going and doing, she just stared at him and heartaching.
she's not able to learn and help him out. cuz emtionally she's totally GONE. i know it's reli hard for my mum to accept da fact dat his husband is dying.



my dad is still so so so so strong until now. i really really respect him. I cant imagine how will i react if i am dying.

who will understand how my mum and dad feel??who would totally able to comprehend the remix feeling in my heart.
it's like we are all riding on an emtional roller coaster everyday. somehow, i dunno what to expect and accept. but my faith in god will not be shaken. cause through this, i m even more closer with HIM. no one can know me more than HIM. the bitterness in my heart, heartaching wen i saw my parents and their emotions., but god choose me as da strength for dem. i would never tink i m da one can support dem spiritually. obviously i m much younger dan dem and experiences are much shallow than dem.

however, i have God in me. HE TURN MY LIFE AROUND.
when i saw my mum was crying. how painful it is?? when i look into de eyes of my dad, the emptiness and hopeless. i wish he has god's love and be comforted by his mighty hands.
someitmes i reli dun feel like seeing them cuz it's reli hard to see them like dis.
Yet god is using me and to cheer them up. now it';s not da a choice.it's da fact dat i hv to be strong as a reflection of jesus.
i mean not much chances dat i can preach to my dad, but christ and holy spirit is in me and guiding me. may it be a testimony for god.

Frankly, i didnt cry at all since da tym i got back to hk. dey may guess like joey's not sad over my death and stuff. No. theres not true. I dunno how to cry but wen i worship god, my tears wer just like a running river. cuz god is reli my one and only shelter and comforter. and thank god dat i am not alone to go through dis.

Jesus gives me the peace and love. how blessed am i?? i m reli experiencing god's love and blessing each and every single day. i thank god dat i am still alive. without god, i wont be able to handle all da torturing and unlimited surprises in my life.

At this point of time is reli a tym for me and my family to surrender to god entirely. not even rely on our strength a bit. cuz JESUS is da healer. i dun noe whether it's his will to heal my dad or not, but i believe its not de end and he wont stop here. faith will bring us through .

god is always with me wherever i go, whatever that is coming, i will leave it to god. there's nothing more important than his love.