Cleaned Kitchen>>>aunti'z hse for Family meeting>>>got new STEAM DUCk from Aunt (it's a cleaning appliance for allergy sufferer) it's so fun to play wif.


newaiz, i totally forgot to tolk bout last nite. actually it was mah cousin's bday, yup. da one who stayed in boonwai'z old hse 4 a week. da one who's slept lyk a pig. (das according to wot jack chia said) he's studying in Melbourne and he's back few days ago. wen mum saw him, she was shocked and kept crying. (cuz mum reli pamper him a lot) newaiz, im pretty glad dat he's back. mah mum has one more mental supporter. btw, he's goin back to melbourne in feb.

Horrible horrible horrible.he's absolutely. as i didnt put make up and he stared at all mah pimples da whole nite( i hate ppl look at me at a close shot).but o well, he had as much pimple as i hav back to da tym wen he was YOUNG.

honestly, i did miss all mah auntiz and mah cousins. Wen i met him again, dere's da joy in me. phewww..............

my entire body is aching badly cuz of dance. it's da worst muscle aching after dance dat i ever had . body aching, heart heavy, mind weary.hmmmmm.

god alone is nt only controlling mah life. but i hv to be willing to surrender mah life.

life could be pretty confusing sometimes. God's been challening me to surrender everything unto him lately. ( i m more aware of dis challenge lately).
i hv no idea wot's mah plan in da coming days, months or years.
i hv no idea wen kan i get out of all dese trails.

it's absolutely crazy in mah situation currently but god's opened a pretty exciting door for my family and I.
da future is still so unknown to me becuz i expect God to give me a path and i'll just follow. i forget. i'm not God's robot. i'm His daughter, His child, His beloved. it is about da relationship.

i might try to find MY way and do My will. but he wouldn't let me, becuz da tym is nt rite yet and i do not know enuf. and it's nt wot i want, it's all bout wot He wants.i remain uncertain, but only certain of dis: He protects me and da path i choose,. as long as all things we do, we do it to glorify God and God alone, then regardless... they're all the right paths and the Lord will be pleased.

A lot of tyms my family even mah parents would doubt (but it's understandable 4 dem to hv dose doubts) is joey faking out de happiness or da stillness and da peace in god.o c'mon!!!!!!!I will not fake a happy post. I will not fake a smile so people can see how "joyful" I am. Joy cums fr de eternal peace, nt da temporal emotions dat we often focus on.


even i didnt mention hw desperately im wanting to see mah daddy being saved. i would hv da thought: wen can i tell him more bout da grace of God? how shud i illustrate dem and apply in his life?
however, a person's soul is nt for us to win.mum can't win it, I can't win it. We are neva asked to win souls. salvation is through grace nt work. Souls can't be won becuz it is for others to surrender themselves to Christ, i can't make dat decision for dad. We can only be witnesses to him, i can share the gospel with him, and i can love him, but it is his decision whether he wud receive Christ as Lord and Savior. And dat is all we are asked to do.


Eyes are closing again.