i m back to mah blog, i've been pretty busy dese few days. just sum updates bout me n mah family.

My mum and i are working in dad's shop. yes, i kant work in dat office n'more.
my parents hv been discussed/argued/ cried over and ultmiately. here's da conclusion:
my mum is forced to work in mah dad's business. and i m da one who's gona help out my mum n somedays i ve gotta cook for my dad.
i went to hospital wif dad dis morning and his CHEMOTHERAPY started today.
newaiz,get back to da point, well, dey hv been discussed bout his business day and nites for de entire month, dey've been crying almost every nite.

Wish of dad:
my mum could tke over his business instead of selling it out.
alrite, dere's a debate:
pro: tking considertaion 4 mum, it's gonna be so hard for her to work wen he's husband is going through a tough tym, da loads of stress on her is huge . and she doesnt hv da heart to learn and she's emotionally unstable every sec/ min/ hours/ days.......she reli wish dat she can do it well for him, moreover, it's just seems to be too hard for her.

she's trying her best and trying to focus and learn.

where m i? i tink i lost track....hmmmmmmmm...

Anywayz, it's reli hard for mum. but becuz of da future of 3 of us, she's forced to do dat.

it's da first day dat dad is not staying at home. mum was crying juz now.
actually i m pretty used to deir crying. it's definitely heartpain to see dem lyk dis,
but i kant do much. God is de only Healer and comforter. i reli pray dat dey would learn how to lean on god instead of deir own strength or even dwell in deir own World ( lyk hell) .i wish dey can see da brightest future dat we're gonna spend eternal life wif God.

there's few tyms dat i dun even wanna work or tke care of dad and just rest in silence and peace and dwell in god' s presence. i cant be occupied by all da workloads, running around here and there. and coping wif all da stress by myself and saw my parents crying all da tym.
rest in peace. das y everyday i m sosoossos looking forward to da tym dat i could spend tym wif god and tolk to him. even wen i got back, gotta clean da hse, busy wif here and dere and trying mah very best to let dem to rest instead of seeing dem getting stressful wen dey saw a little black Dot on da floor and fighting to pick it up. shaking my head.

therefore, i m trying to do everything to help dem out, Just Rest and Sit Down and Relax.

i was telling my mum not to work tmr and just rest. rest in peace and just relax. n she juzt told me she cant. i m lyk?!
i reli believe no matter how busy we are or so many things we' wanna do our best and give out all, but without god's strength. we cant rely on ourselves. das impossible. cuz we're HUMANs. i just told her dat she n i gotta rest. we need to spend tym wif god everyday and reflect and do some tinking. not lyk keep working and serving as a Robot. i dun wanna be a slave of money. we can serve two master at da same tym. God is da one dat i want to serve in my entirely life.

i told my mum i cant work everyday and i will tke day out, cuz i need my own space wif god. and da tym. i dun wanna get exhausted everyday and wen i got back i was so tired.



i was pretty moody on sat during work. i was being emotional and i was just quiet most of da tym. i was i bit down. cuz i tended to tink 2 much. bout my dad and mum, da shop. our flat, deir future and my future.

If you try to save your life, you will lose it. but if you give it up to me, you will surely find it. matt 10: 39



if you are tired from carrying heavy burden, come to me and i will give you rest.take the yoke i give you. Put it on your shoulders and learn from me. i am gentle and hmble, and you will find rest. This yoke is easy to bear, and this burden is light. Matt 11:28-30

Thank god for Blessing me wif a chance to see my mum and dad everyday.
thank god dat dey are still alive.
thank god for putting dem in my life.
thank god for blessing us wif a chance to get to noe him and hv holy spirit in us as a gift from heaven.
thank you god for forgiving all our sins.
thank god for giving us trials to be strengthen and to be trained to be more lyk Jesus,
thank god for blessing us wif hard tyms so dat we noe da suffering of Jesus is nt easy at all.
thank god for Blessing wif a chance to testify Your Love.
thank god for using me in different areas of life.
thank god for saving my mum. thank god for soften da heart of dad.
thank god for open da door for dis family. thank god for da miracles dat is gonna happen
thank god in advance for goning to save my dad. thank you for show ing us your gentle love through da bros and sis.
thank you for never leave me alone and always stand besides me.

Thank you Jesus for dying on da cross for da sins of da world.
tHank you for da tym dat i can spend wif my family.
tahnk god for blessing me wif a wonderful church of yours.
tahnk god for puttung all of dem into my life.

das so many things dat i wanna give thanks for.
thank god for all da beautiful things on earth.