Juz finished a serious tolk wif mah parents. Mummy was crying and crying and crying. Dad was crying at da beginning.

dey are sort of lyk hving sum planning in case my dad is gonna be in da hospital. He went for bone marrow check today and he might hv to get into hospital soon. Cuz his condition is getting worse.
He told us just now he feel dat his life is coming to an end soon. he wish dat my mum could tke over his business.
O well. how can a woman keep running a business rite now and when her husband is in da hospital.O c'mon, my mum is totally depressed and becuz of mah dad, she's goin to gif up everything.


Rite now if u put 1000000000 dollars in front of her, she also wont border to tke it.
am i dat cold blooded? i didnt even sob. i dun tink it's de end still. i noe dat god is Do sth.
i keep reminding my mum and dad if u all believe in Jesus. you'll hv da hope and u are going to see each other in heaven. But at da same tym, i also warn my mum, if u commit suicide. u would never get to see dad even he believe in Jesus. das make her tink more and i guess it's a purpose for me at dis moment.

i was being honest and told dem even two of dem died. i will never commit suicide. i m nt being selfish . but god always has his own timing. when it's tym, god will tke me away.
I cant live without my husband, my wife my son, my daughter...and so on. it's definitely not true. we cant live without God.

i was a bit angry wif mah dad just now cuz he was keep scolding everything. he keep pointing out my tiny mistakes and keep scolding when our focus is not dere.
newaiz, i shall not be anxious cuz he's my dad. i dun even noe wen will God tke him away from me and mum.


just sad for dem when i saw dem crying and dey themselves even lose da hope.

MUm and Dad. you can do it and i love you sosoosoososos much. i didnt cry dun mean dat i dun love you. i m always dere to pray for god's comfort upon u. and i hv my shoulder for you. i m rite here next to u wen 2 of u are sleeping rite now.

i l ove u!


Dear Daddy in heaven. you are the only one dat understand me rite now. Lord, i pray for comfort upon my mum and dad. Please place the hope and joy in deir hearts. Lord, no matter wot's de outcome. we put our trust in you. lord, i am tired and i need you each and evert single day. lord, please refresh me and rebuild the trust in you lord.

daddy, i pray for supernatural power in dis family lord. i pray dat we will hv da strength to support each other instead of pull each other down lord. daddy, you are my lord forever more. i place everything under your feet. lord, i pray o god may your blessings come upon my mum and dad.
lord, please forgive all of us being ignorant and please forgive dem lord. forgive my dad being stubborn still lord. but lord, i pray for da holy spirit to guide us in every single thing dat we do lord. father, you are my lord and saviour. i claim evreything in faith lord.

please tke away deir burden rite now. let dem to relax under your arms and rest . just rest. lord, dey are so tired of tinking and worrying days and nites. lord, please please please open deir hearts and let you to minister to dem. father, you derserve all da glory and praise. your love is always gentle and kind and pure.
there's no other love can compare wif yours.

lord, i pray for my dad rite now lord. lord, i ask for mercy and grace on him lord. lord, may you keep soften his heart and may he surrender evrything to you o lord. you are the only one dat can change his heart. lord, i pray for angels to speak to him lord. may your will be done lord.
father, i pray for healing for my dad. Jesus, you can heal da blind. lord, i ask o lord may you heal my dad if it's yr will lord. daddy, i can do nothing for him but just pray for him lord.

daddy, i pray for my mum rite now lord dat may you comfort her and ease her pain and be her shelter. may she learn to lean on you through tough time lord. lord, train her in your holy ways and to walk by faith lord. there' no one else for her. not even me. you are the only one dat can move the mountains. lord, i hv faith in you dat you will bring miracles in dis family and be a testimony for your people.

lord, i pray o god may you protect my mum and dad against all de enemies. please fight for dem during deir weakest tym. lord, i proclaim victory in your mighty name. god you will make a way when there seems to be no way.

father, you are an awesome god. i lift every thoughts of mine, every steps dat we are going to tke unto you. Lord, you are the master of my life. do whateva you want and i will follow you!
i love you more dan anything.
amen