29/3
dad is home dad is home.
oh well, he has been CAGED in da ward for over three months.
welcome back dad, even he's gonna stay until da comin Mon. it's a truly a blessing from the Lord that at least he is able to feel some love at home.

Our family are extremly blessed!! it's mum's bday today and guess what, Three of us get to spend tym toegther even we didnt do any fancy celebration. Most importantly, we Have the Lord in the our hearts and das make us connected even more. thank God for da Peace in us.

i hvnt been spending tym wif her on her bday for.hmmhmhm. few years.
Happy Birthday MUMMMMMMMMYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rmb when i had Epilepsy in Korea when i was young, you put your finger into my mouth. you would rather i bite yr finger instead of my own tongue.
Rmb you worked real hard day in and day out for my expenses?
Rmb you used to stay up late everynite to watch soccer?
Rmb you used to hold my hands and cross the road when i was a kid?
Rmb you bought me breakfast every morning and i didnt even bother to wake up to eat it?
Rmb you wrote me all da letters wen i was back in WA?
Rmb you were crying in de airport wen i was departing.
Rmb we cried together wen our cat(siu gut) passed away.
Rmb u kicked me out of da house late at nite wen i was in primary 2, and rmb hw panic you were wen u couldnt find me and you wept...
Rmb you used to prepare everything for me b4 i took shower
Rmb you used to bring me out to enjoy all sort of great food?
Rmb u took me to disneyland when i was little?
Rmb u laughed at me wen i was freaked out by GOFFie who's running toward me in Disneyland?
Rmb u accompanied and held my hands wen i was in the ambulance?
Rmb u used to tke leave to tke me to da doctor?
Rmb ..........................

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daddy, i love you. i really do. i love you very much. and i do miss you.
i feel for you. i truly do daddy.
but let me hold your hands now. forgive me for all my childness.
you are always MY HERO..........

Thank God for YOU!!!!!!

Thank God for YOU who's one of them to see me through since last OCT.
Thank you for your unconditional support.
thank you for your prayer day in and day out.
thank you for accepting ME in your life.
thank you for your approach when i am nobody when i first came.
thank you for opening up yourself to me.
thank you for sharing your life with me.
thank you for letting me know that i am actually trustworthy.
thank you for yr encouragments.
thank you for reminding me that i am beautifully and wonderfully made by God and i am precious.
thank you for giving me a chance to bless you.
thank you for taking care of me.
thank you for all your teachings either in dance or spiritually.
thank you for STRETCHing my muscle.
thank for seeing the potential in me.
thank you for sharing food with me.
thank you for your time in catching up with me.
thank you for all your hugs.
thank you for your jokes and sense of humor.
thank you for all your prayers for me and my family.
thank you for being who you are.
thank you for showing me what Faith truly is.
thank you for being an inspiriations through your perseverence.
thank you for EVERYTHING.

my dear gurl.

Highlights of TODay:
mum caught a cold and rested at home.
dad and mum have been weeping since yesterday.
Dad saw heaps of patient who used to stay in da same ward as him have Passed away. SAtan is trying to FREAK him out and place the fears in his heart. (it's really important to pray for sword of spirit to stand firm in every attack from satan in the spiritual realm)


please keep praying for mah daddy and mummy.

i am so sorry for da Lack-of-blogging.
well, mah blog was listed as LINK SPAMMING by Blogger. How dodgy is dat?
therefore, i was nt able to publish entries.

well well well, i hv no idea where to start off..
first of all, just wanna let you guys know i am going for a mission trip in Beijing as a dance team in April.. there are 7 of us. we are heading to an Orphanage -http://www.chinaorphans.org/childrenstories.php

it's really a great blessing from God. as i always have the desire and passion to go for mission trip. GOd is faithful!!!!
Somehow God prepares my heart , i am not only going to receive but give. If you have a look of all the kids in the orphanage, it will be uneasy to see them.
Way to GO!!!!!!!! we are expecting the unexpected as a team!!

Dad has been suffering from high fever since two weeks ago. the doctor is still on the process in finding the cause for dat. most probably is the bacteria in his brain, it wouldnt stay for a certain part of the body for long and it once was in the tongue of his. and it turns all black. it's really horrible. right now we have no idea where is it.

dad is depressed since he has been in the hospital for more than 2 months.

please continue to pray for him.

Let me share something dat i learned these couple of weeks.
For those who dunno, i am attending a course- CLEANSING STREAM MINISTRIES (worldwide course, it first started in California)
basically, we have meeting every two weeks and at the end of the course, we will have a retreat.
what is cleansing stream ministries?
Clensing Stream Ministries is committed to partnering wif pastors and churches in teaching and training leaders and maturing believers in personal cleansing, deliverance, and spiritual warfare, so that they can be released to serve, minister and disciple others in the body of CHrist.
CSM is committed to and under the covering of the CHURCH ON THE WAY in Van NUYS, California.
this CSM SEMINAR is more than just the teachings, workbook, Discipleship Assignments, homework, small group meetings and relationships cultivated, Retreat and minsitry of healing and freedom received. "the whole is more dan the sum of the parts."dat perfectly describes the Seminar.

frankly speaking. it's pretty much a hardcore and intensive course, there's lots of readings and assignments. Moreover, all the materials and all the work- in- process is really inspiring and powerful.





The possibilities for offense are as endless the list of relationships, no matter hw complex or simple. dis truth remains:Only those you care bout can hurt you. you expect more from them- after all, u've given more of yourself to them.the higher the expectation, the greater the fall. Hence, we get offended....

But we didnt realise that we have fallen into satan's trap. we always put ourselves as VICTIMS..we tink dat we are the only ones who have been wronged. we are deceived , we believes we're rite even though we r nt.

Pride cause us to view ourselves as Victims, our attitude become I WAS MISTREATED and MISJUDGED, therefore, i am justified in my Behavior.
well, PRide hardens our heart and dims the eyes of our understanding. it also keeps us from the change of heart- REPENTANCE- that will set us free.

Thought sometimes we hide the true condidtion in our heart, but it is not hidden from GOD.

JUST BECAUSE WE WERE MISTREATED<>when the fire if trials hit u, these impurities surfaced. though hidden, they were visible to GOD, ALWAYS. so now you have da choice that will determine yr future. you can remain angry, blaming yr family, friends, leaders, pastor and the ppl u work wif, or you can see this dross of sin for what it is and repent,receive forgiveness, and God will take his ladle and remove these impurities from your life.

God doesnt mean to condemn us instead he brings conviction!!!!!!!!!

Updates bout dad's condition:
basically, he's going for A second induction chemotherapy which is starting TOMORROW>
Apparently, his white blood cells level is fairly low and dere's an urge to go for chemotherapy ASAP.
dere's pretty much a failure in his first chemotherapy, it didnt help at all. hopefully, dis tym round would help.
Please continue to keep him in your prayers.

I found dat de Israelites are pretty amusing. How? have a look in Numbers 11:1-15


Rmb in Exodus 16:1-21, the LORD sent Manna from heaven to dem.

Dun u realize the Israelites are always complaing?wen dere's no food, dey complained. while dere's food, dey desire for meat. wen i was reading more bout dem, "You Israelites are SUCKERS"
and it made me giggle.

Wait a min. Isnt it sound familiar?
Are you and I like one of de Israelites?
are we tking possessions/ people for granted?
OOps.......dey are nt de only bunch of suckers.....@_@"

Greeds simply gets us into da GRAVES of CRAVING....
In Numbers 11:31-35. the ppl's complaints finally kindled da LORD's anger.
well, we all noe dat God will provide.
but are we dwelling in da Graves of craving?
How do we actually see NEEDS & WANTS?
dese questions kills me.
IF JESUS WERE TO ASK YOU TO GIVE WHAT YOU HAVE TO DA POOR AND FOLLOW HIM, WOULD YOU?
ha. lots of christians can answer in a very Godly way. i would like to take it as a huge challenge!!

Sofia is from a wealthy family. Fr. her experiences, she can testify that even u are a millionare right now.you can possibly lost all your possessions within a second.
How true is dat?God can take away all of our possessions easily. we humans are trying to save up and strive for earthly wealth and success. back to the same statement " we worry that we dun hv enough, we worry dat we'll lose all da possessions..."


how many of us are worrying bout how much money you are going to earn in da future?how big the house m i gonna get?



challenge:
Matt 6:25- 34

Do Not Worry

25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Dream Intepretation?!?!?!?!?!?!

Basically i was told by two of mah buddiez in Perth dat i appeared in deir dreams on da same nite.
Both of dem dreamt dat i got back to Perth. One party dreamt dat i got back without informing anybody and wen dey saw me, dey were shocked and cried.
another one is ......err. i kant rmb though.

why am i pointing dis out. cause at dat sec i was pondering IS IT A SIGN FROM GOD DAT I WILL BE GOING BACK soon????

o well, it's simply a dream mah frds. GOd is much more REAL THAN DREAMS. and i am sure His plan is much better than our actual plans or even DREAMS.

Took on da nite of 23/1/2007, yes, my whole bunch of hk frds found out i m back.i gained lots of weight by the way.sob sob sob

Funny Babies 2

1/1/2007
i am still da youngest here. phewww....

Allow God to be God!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

How true is that?

Without God we are Nothing.
Without God we can do Nothing.
God is Very BIG but we're very small.
Isaiah 46:9-10 Remember the former things, those of long ago;
I am God, and there is no other;
I am God, and there is none like me.

10 I make known the end from the beginning,
from ancient times, what is still to come.
I say: My purpose will stand,
and I will do all that I please.

God's way is de ONLY WAY!!!

Proverbs 19:2
It is not good to have zeal without knowledge,
nor to be hasty and miss the way.

Our ways always Fail. Who's da creator of this world?He know Da BEST of HIS PLANS and creatures.

James 4:13-15

Now listen, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money." 14Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. 15Instead, you ought to say, "If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that."

God's influence is working on His will!!

YEs, we are called to be God's influencer So that his will can be done.

2 Kings 5:1-7

Now Naaman was commander of the army of the king of Aram. He was a great man in the sight of his master and highly regarded, because through him the LORD had given victory to Aram. He was a valiant soldier, but he had leprosy.

2 Now bands from Aram had gone out and had taken captive a young girl from Israel, and she served Naaman's wife. 3 She said to her mistress, "If only my master would see the prophet who is in Samaria! He would cure him of his leprosy."

Naaman went to his master and told him what the girl from Israel had said. 5 "By all means, go," the king of Aram replied. "I will send a letter to the king of Israel." So Naaman left, taking with him ten talents of silver, six thousand shekels of gold and ten sets of clothing. 6 The letter that he took to the king of Israel read: "With this letter I am sending my servant Naaman to you so that you may cure him of his leprosy."

7 As soon as the king of Israel read the letter, he tore his robes and said, "Am I God? Can I kill and bring back to life? Why does this fellow send someone to me to be cured of his leprosy? See how he is trying to pick a quarrel with me!"

God- influencer allow God to be God!!

it's so important to understand the sovereignty of GOD.

RK House Prank - No PORK! (Full Version) with Subtitles

Rite now is 4:06am,
wot m i doing at such weeeee hour??
yes, i m eating. i ate a Dognut (da Sydney's dognut reaches hk and i grabbed it from mah cousin) at bout 2am and after a while i tried to sleep. but i couldnt and guess what?i was still hungry.
so here i am eating da left over of mum's cooking.
and yea, i finished da whole thing.
oh, dun be shocked, i had a proper dinner at nite as well.
i weight myself in aunti's place juz now and yes, i gain weight again. shhhhhh........
i m actuallu tinking how to answer mah mum tmr morning wen she opened da fridge and found da whole box of left over was Gone..............
poor mum.

ermmermm. wot's on mah mind rite now?
i hv no idea. beta ask God to put me to bed lyk a baby......
rubbing eyes. alrighty, i am full Finally. and gotta brush teeth again.
nite nite mah dear frdzzz.

Grace of God
In Scripture, God mentioned da kingdom of Heaven is actually God's culture on earth.
so wot does it mean?
God means the world we live in should be lyk dis.

Parable of Grace:
Matt 20
The Parable of the Workers in the Vineyard
1"For the kingdom of heaven is like a landowner who went out early in the morning to hire men to work in his vineyard. 2He agreed to pay them a denarius for the day and sent them into his vineyard.

3"About the third hour he went out and saw others standing in the marketplace doing nothing. 4He told them, 'You also go and work in my vineyard, and I will pay you whatever is right.' 5So they went.

"He went out again about the sixth hour and the ninth hour and did the same thing. 6About the eleventh hour he went out and found still others standing around. He asked them, 'Why have you been standing here all day long doing nothing?'

7" 'Because no one has hired us,' they answered.
"He said to them, 'You also go and work in my vineyard.'

8"When evening came, the owner of the vineyard said to his foreman, 'Call the workers and pay them their wages, beginning with the last ones hired and going on to the first.'

9"The workers who were hired about the eleventh hour came and each received a denarius. 10So when those came who were hired first, they expected to receive more. But each one of them also received a denarius. 11When they received it, they began to grumble against the landowner. 12'These men who were hired last worked only one hour,' they said, 'and you have made them equal to us who have borne the burden of the work and the heat of the day.'

13"But he answered one of them, 'Friend, I am not being unfair to you. Didn't you agree to work for a denarius? 14Take your pay and go. I want to give the man who was hired last the same as I gave you. 15Don't I have the right to do what I want with my own money? Or are you envious because I am generous?'

16"So the last will be first, and the first will be last."


God has da rite>He's generous. it's all becuz of His Grace.
It's nt only tolking bout da grace of God back in de olden times.
it still count to da culture of TODAY. we're living by da Grace of God

whether we deserve it or not?we kan neva demand from it,but he gave it to us!!!!!!!!!!!!!
His grace is always humble
God's God's
Riches Relationship
At As
Christ's Creation's
Expense Embrace
Is it amazing?

God's character:
Grace is part of God's character and it makes up who GOD IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Exodus 34:6-7

6 And he passed in front of Moses, proclaiming, "The LORD, the LORD, the compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness, 7 maintaining love to thousands, and forgiving wickedness, rebellion and sin. Yet he does not leave the guilty unpunished; he punishes the children and their children for the sin of the fathers to the third and fourth generation."

he's compassionate and gracious.
let's refer to de old testatment, Adam and Eve ate da fruits but dey didnt died straight away.why?by da grace of God.

Titus 2:11-14
11For the grace of God that brings salvation has appeared to all men. 12It teaches us to say "No" to ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright and godly lives in this present age, 13while we wait for the blessed hope—the glorious appearing of our great God and Savior, Jesus Christ, 14who gave himself for us to redeem us from all wickedness and to purify for himself a people that are his very own, eager to do what is good

SALVATION is for ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Without da grace of God, we'll be stuck on our sins.
Romans 5:8
through his death, we found love.
I'm free in HIm.
Romans5:20
But where sin increase, grace increase, all da more, so dat just as sins reigned in death, so also grace might reign through righteousness to bring eternal life.

Grace provides the HOPE for our FUTURE
we waiting for da blessed hope.Grace provides da hope of da return of Jesus.
He's coming back to restore da world.
a lot of ppl were guessing when is Jesus coming back .....
da POINT is nt WEN is it gonna happen,
Da FACT is it IS GONNA HAPPEN.

Grace gifs us da STRENGTH in da Present
ppl might tke grace for granted, but Jesus taught us to say NO to sin.
how kan it be done?
it's done by de understanding of God's grace.
CHallenge: not to continue da sins we've committed.

to sum up, we kant separate GOD and GRACE.



Satans will gif us a feelin dat we kant FALL. he attacked da disciples.
it's easy for YOU and I to judge others. but let's tink bout it?will it make us superior?
Every man has Six Wings. but dere's two are hiding da holyness of God!!
"HOLY is da Lord "

da two wings might be da loneliness of our MIND.
Jesus was praying and fasting in da 40 days. he's was lonely.
God exalted him by accepting da humilation of da Lord.

we should understand dat Preaching is nt meant to be a PRide.we have every reason to humble ourselves b4 HIM.Jesus's loneliness is noble and respectable.
God asks us to pray in secret n we dun hv to try to be humble.
James 4:6
God resists da proud but gif grace to da humble.

sometimes, da sound of da violin is so angelic BUT is it in tune's of GOD?

why do we hv to pray?
to pray less= to defend less.

Ask wif faith in God!!
Ask= god's command
You kant be if u dun ask.
Ask God how to act!!
John 15:7
If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you.

FAITH IS FAITH IN GOD BUT NT JUST DA FAITH IN MIRACLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Phil 2

Imitating Christ's Humility

1If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, 2then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose. 3Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. 4Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.

5Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus:
6Who, being in very nature^[a] God,
did not consider equality with God something to be grasped,
7but made himself nothing,
taking the very nature^[b] of a servant,
being made in human likeness.
8And being found in appearance as a man,
he humbled himself
and became obedient to death—
even death on a cross!
9Therefore God exalted him to the highest place
and gave him the name that is above every name,
10that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,
in heaven and on earth and under the earth,
11and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord,
to the glory of God the Father.

Humility creates obedience.
Everything s done by GRACE of God.Gospel is nt bout da TALK,but da POWER........................................

NO longer a TEEN?!!!
step into 20, i feel old. i truly do.
u might find it ludicrous and yell at me
"How dare you say you are Old?"
"20 is nt old"
Neverthless, i kan no longer exclaim" i m 19!!!"
i gotta say goodbye to mah teen.....
Yet, i m looking forward to da year ahead.
how God is going to use me?
Where wil He place me to?
i m excited.

Wonderful bday
i am extremely blessed.
i had four bday cakes dis year. let me give you guys a brief bout dese few days.

22nd Jan:
met up wif Lewis, Kiki and Sunny (3 of mah cell members back in Perth)
we went for tea and dey gave me da FIRST bday cake. woohoo.
i was so shocked cuz i never expect anything from dem.
dey are just so sweet and hilarious. deir conservations simply laughed mah head off. lol

nite time, we had a family dinner for mah grandma's bday. it's great and turn out i got lots of RED POCKET money for mah bday. lol.
At nite, had a great tym wif 2 of mah cousins and mah aunt in karoake. i had mah second bday cake dere. kekek
reached home at bout 4ish in da morning.

23rd Jan:
first day of work in Sony (5pm to 9pm)
after work, mah bday dinner wif all mah buddies (high skurl frds)
we had hotpot ( 3rd bday cake) and we went for a cafe for supper. had a great tym.

24th Jan:
happi bday Joey !!!!!!!!!!!!
slept till 1pm and went out for church core meeting at 7pm. dinner in Flying Pan in Soho wif a whole bunch of mah church buddies. (4th cake ).
i got a bunch of flowers wen i reached THE VINE as gabby told me , i was freaked out and i ran up to VINE office (das lots of ppl dere and i bumped into Pastor Tony at de entrance of de office)
i told pastor Tony "i got a bunch of flowers in Vine Office "
"oh, it's yr bday today?"
"yea, hehe"
he shouted in de office"oh, today's it's joey's bday, let's sing a song for her"
and mark Nam took out da guitar and all of dem sang me a bday song.
(i was so shy and mah face turned red)keeke. and pastor John came out as well.
all of dem asked me
"who's da guy who gave u dis bunch of flowers?he must from the VINE,
otherwise please throw it away."
lollololol

"Oh, den i shall throw it away now, cuz .......
err. he's a frd of mine back in Perth."
and all of dem was lyk "ohhhhhh......"
followed by all da nonsense and teasing by Tom, Mark and Pastor Tony and pastor John.

neverthless, i was so touched by deir love. kekeke. aww. so sweet. kkekeke
and i carried da bunch of flowers back to Vine Center and Gabby purposely showed it to everybody
i was lyk @~@....oh ,gosh!!!!!and some of da guys just act lyk it's a gift from dem.
dey are hilarious.

well, how kan i forgot dis?
on da way to de Mtr after da fabulous dinner. Joshua was holding da flowers for me.
wen we reached dere and while i was trying to tke da flowers back.
alright , listen, we all are in de MTR station and there's lots of ppl
he shouted " joey, marry me!!!! please marry me !!!!!!!!!!"
he really laughed our heads offffffff...........
and we all ran away. he knee down and keep shouting, and everybody was staring at all of us .
kan u image how embarrsing is dat?
hahhaahahhhhhhhahahhahhahha
alright, das a joke of da day
he tried to embarrsssssssse me ..lol. (alright, dun start gossiping ok?he's simply playing a prank on me.
Poor Joeyyyy.

Surprise:
mah precious gift from Mum and dad ; Swarovsk's necklace which is a crystal cross.
i lyk it sosoososooosoo much. awwwwww......sob sob sob.
das all for mah bday. hving mah another bday dinner on sunday nite after church service.
yes, Praise God for his gentle love.
He's so good to me . awwwwww..................

GOD AMAZED ME OVER AND OVER AGAIN

Dad went through a terrible ordeal once again on Fri.
i received a call on fri morning,"wake up, i m going for da surgery in de afternoon."dad muttered.
After a few days of contentions, three of da neurosurgeon came to a conclusion dat dad has to go for da Brain surgery in order to examine da infected cells.
However, dere's a high risk of death due to his low immune system.
Can you imagine how distressing is dat?
Mum was lykkk weeping over and over again.
dad tolked to us lyk he's having da death wish.
ThAT'S wot he said" No mata wot, u gotta tke care of mommy.secondly, u must finish da degree."

Sofia (a frd of mine from church) took a cap to pray wif mah dad.
and made some promises to all of us. ( if u wanna know more, ask me another tym, alright?)

i sent out a mass of txt msg to Australia, Malaysia, Hong Kong to get everybody to pray together.

God places da PEACE IN ME
wot else can scare us? we've gone through dese kind of tortures for many tyms.. i didnt trample down da consequences of da surgery, but i told dad ," i m going to see you after 3 hours wif yr blink blink eyes**"i know our Mighty God is in control. God places da peace in me.da whole bunch of relatives would tink dat i m absolutely abnormal. yea, GOD is an abnormal god ( in a good way)
He's extraordinary. wen u noe He's holding mah dad. why shall i be shaken and be freaked out by all da FACTS? we keep praying for de entire afternoon.wen i was reading da bible during da operation, Psamls 71 and 75. God reminds me to praise him for wot he had done. GOD won da battle.
One of lip eng's frd who's a Neurosurgeon David came and we've got da permission to get into de operation theater for a while and had a chat wif dad.

God is faithful. he answered our prayers. He's just totally miraculous.
thanks for all da prayers.

Dad is saved by our MIGHTY GOD.

as i mentioned GOd is faithful, he never fails. nt even once. de operation went well and dad is alright.
At first, da neurosurgeons told mum dat da bacteria was known as BRAIN ABSCESS.
however, it had a negative result of it. Therefore, it's still under examination.
KEEP PRAYING THAT IT's NT LEUKEMIC SPREAD.


So daddy is in neurosurgery wards at da moment. he might be transfered back to leukemic wards tmr.



There must be more than this,
O breath of God come breathe within,
There must be more than this,
Spirit of God we wait for You.

Fill us anew we pray,
Fill us anew we pray.

(Chorus)
Consuming fire fan into flame,
A passion for Your Name,
Spirit of God fall in this place,
Lord have Your way,
Lord have Your way...with us.

Come like a rushing wind,
Clothe us with power from on high,
Now set the captives free,
Leave us abandoned to Your praise.

Lord let Your glory fall,
Lord let Your glory fall.


Please do keep praying for mah dad and pray for God's will to be done through all of us.
btw, dun forget bout da waiver. result is gonna be out in two weeks tym. Please PRAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Prayer Requests:

God will show us da directions and visions for dis year.
God's will to be done through our lives.
pray for mre understanding bout a Father's heart and to be on da same line wif god.
God's strength for mah parents and i to persevere.
da Joy in our family.
God's protection and healing over mah dad.
pray for mum to be stronger spiritually and be a better encourager to dad.
pray for mum and dad to learn hw to lay burden unto jesus.
pray for wisdom in any decision making n listen to God
all of us to SEEK more
spiritual growth and growth in faith

for me:
growth, faith, perseverence.
understand da heart of Jesus
to be more discipline
let all mah weakness be strengthen by GOD
da fire for God
seek god's will instead of mine.
directions and visions.
tke up a rite job offer
to be mould by god in every aspects of mah life
to rejoice anywhere, anytime. ( in all circumstances)
to be stretched and prepare sth greater in dis year.
learn to lay mah burdens before God instead of placing it on mah own shoulder
da love for ppl and forgiveness.
get rid of all da stress and let jesus to transform it into joy.
an answer whether to go back to perth or staying back ( da result of da waiver is gonna be out by de end of dis month)
to be stronger and be able t accepted correction from God.
maturity
a chance to serve God in mission trips (our church has some missions trips in april. pray dat i would hv da chance to Go all out for GOD)

yea, das a lot. but dose are mah prayer requests
thanks for yr consistent or once in a while prayer,
hope u guys will keep praying for mah dad and dun forget bout it.
cuz he might hv to go for a brain surgery tmr


dad--
da two dots or bacteria in his brain are expanding and dey increase to four right now.
da doctors are still discussing whether he should go for da surgery or not
by tha way, da surgery's purpose is to tke out da bacteria and investigate wot sort of bacteria is dat. it might be luekemic spread.
but it's too risky for his condition rite now as his immune system is too low.

pray for a rite decision to be made by dad and mum.

I didnt know...............

i didnt noe dat i was so upset...................

i didnt noe dat i've been trying to carry da burden on mah own..........
i didn't noe dat i've been looking for da joy i used to hv.
i didn't noe dat i could actually lean on her shoulder and cried all out.
i didn't noe i was dat stressful.
i didn't noe hw to deal wif it in fact.

i sort of forgetting, all these until Today.
i truly feel it strongly.
i am that weak.i can't handle all dese on my own. i simply can't .
frist month, ppl didn't want you to go back, when da tym u go back, u've lot of bros and sis care bout yr family. tym past by, things seems to be stable a little bit. At least yr dad's still alive.
memories start to becum vague or vanish. i didnt rely much on ppl seriously, not a single soul. i m nt locking myself up. but for i noe Jesus is de only one who understand me da most. he knows me better dan i noe myself. in church just now, i felt i breakdown, i hv been trying so hard to telling others and myself
I am ALRIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but da fact is, i'm nt. i m trying to handle all da stress, all da complains, all da judgements, all da sadness on my own. cuz i hv no idea who to look for, except Jesus.
mum was asking me last nite, Who do u trust da most?
i said, GOD. it's true. she said apart from GOD? i said Nobody. she felt das so freaky, i didnt even trust my parents. i told her, i do trust dem but one day u too will leave me as well. i kan trust nobody but only GOd. god will never leave me. HE wouldnt gossip me or keep judging me or keep complaing bout all u do. cuz no matter hw hard u try, u are still nt good enough. but in god's eyes, he understand, he will hold my hands and never let me go. he would never. never ever.


after being prayed by gabby after service, she said "joey, u dun hv to be that strong all the time. you dun hv to. "and i couldnt hold my tears anymore. weeping and weeping weeping and weeping............................couldnt stop after sometime.

Yes, Jesus reminds me "joey, it's okay, to lift mah burdens to me. to cry it out and tell me you're nt ok. cuz i'm with you even you are going through valleys as dark as death. "

Oceans Will Part

If my heart has grown cold
There Your love will unfold
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
When I’m blind to my way
There Your Spirit will pray
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand


Oceans will part nations come
At the whisper of Your call
Hope will rise glory shown
In my life Your will be done


Present suffering may pass
Lord Your mercy will last
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
And my heart will find praise
I’ll delight in Your way
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

Hamster on a wheel........

i've been running away from blogging i guess. i was Nowhere. i went through a hard tym dis week.
spiritually dry, mentally exhausted, phyically w

Lack of Joy n peace.
As i mentioned, ive been reli upset and despair dis whole week. i was striving for da Holy SPirit to fill de emptiness of mah soul.
where is mah heart?
Insecurity in me. ive been knocking real hard on da door and asking, where's mah goal?c'mon, i need a vision, i need a goal.
guess wot? da more i ask, da more i m confused. da more i tink, da more frustrated i get.
it's tking me NOwhere, it's nt helping da situation at all. it simply mess it up.

so many tyms i wanted to show mah love towards mah mum and dad, da love to mah frds, share mah life wif dem. but i lost mah motivation, i lost de enthusiasm of loving ppl.
yea, i m nt trying to keep sharing hw faithful i m right here. i did fall. i m nt sharing to stumble you or discourage you or even disappoint you.
it's just part of mah walk wif Jesus.
alright, carry on.
it sounds lyk i hv a crappy week wif heaps of distress.

Breakthrough.
On da way to bible study alone wif a sinking, despairing heart.
amazingly, i was Overwhelmed by wot god has taught me during da bible study.
After some case studying.
QUES:
Are you motivated at work by da need to earn a living or do you have a different sense of purpose?
Have you ever caught yourself wondering, "IS this all?"

well, i kan related to none of da case study. Meanwhile, mah title says it all within dis whole week, all da doubts and a vague sense of uncertainty. "is this gonna be mah life?"
i felt lyk i m a hamster spinning on da wheel which gets me Nowhere. However, ive acknowledged dat I"M NT.

a Hamster spinning on a wheel VS. a hamster running a race on a path.
difference:
HAmster spinning on a wheel is going nowhere. it's frantically spinning but going nowhere.
no matter hw hard it tries, it's still achieving nth. it's nt gonna roll back nor forward.

Hamster running a race on da path. it's going forward. the more faith it has, da further it kan go.
but it's nt gonna help as if it runs by it's own strength. when it falls, dere's someone to pick it up and to move on once again. isn't it too lonely for hamster to run by itself?it needs frds, doesnt it?

What is ABUNDANT life?
How kan it imply both "sufficient" and "excess"?

Jesus offered a much different understanding of de ABUNDANT LIFE. one nt based upon a disparity of wealth. but upon da kingdom of GOD in which everyone shares in da LORD"S abundance.

it drives me to ponder.
i should be thankful all da tym.
cuz of mah own desire, wanting to be back in Perth. hoping of being pampered and surrounded by all de EXCESS love from Zioners. Wishing for doing something greater for GOD lyk going for mission trips. Longing for an end to da circumstances i m in.......
Have i forgotten i m living for mah heavenly father?
am i asking for my own desire?
did i react in a way das pleasing god?
Am i doing all dese cuz i m forced to?

Stagnation VS. Momentum

mah faith was in stagnation for da past week. ive got da hope and faith in God. but i tended to tke it for granted. seriously, i DID. u might be pondering how kan dat happen?
when mah faith in GOD to heal mah dad and pave a better life for my family and i remains dere, are u wif me?JUST stays in a certain level, it's nt moving back nor moving forward.
it's STAGNATION, m i right?


God spoke to me on Wednesday at leadership meeting. God was saying THAT's YOU JOEY,
you've gotta exercise yr Faith.
Stagnation in da bible:Lukewarm, faithless, lacking,
Momentum in da bible:increase, vision, love, full, blessing, favour, stretch,above, honored, all things, anything, supply, victory, abundantly, received, answered.

Evaluations plus Reflections

Matt 24:13
13but he who stands firm to the end will be saved.

God's love is vy vy real, but it is not an emotion. It is not a feeling. It is not a romantic adventure.God himself is LOVE.

When God loves, things change,right?

well Let God truly embrace you n i with His love, n we'll get more dan a little emotional buzz.
He will transform us! He will reveal Himself to us. He will write His own name all over us--inside, outside, all around, and everywhere else.

we will cum down fr de experience wif a glow in our spirit dat will draw others to His light.
it reminds me de amazing encounter wif a gurl who's non believer.
Our presence on earth will be sufficient for sowing and reaping a harvest of souls.

God's love and blessings hv no bounds. His love and goodness is far beyond our understanding.
it seems to be no way. but do we rmb God is LOVE, keep knocking, searching n seeking.

Joy is a fruit of the Spirit. We cannot buy joy, we cannot develop it through hard work, study.

Weve gotta understand real joy is nt depend upon our circumstances. If attaining a lifestyle of joy depends upon getting everything right, we will surely die. Spiritual joy is independent of our circumstances in life. it's hard.

Blossoms=healing??!!!

Where does real joy come from?dad being healed?returning back to perth?

When we want to harvest , we dun begin wif blossoms. we begin wif a tree n sum dirt. planting da tree, water it, n fertilize da ground around it. But if we plant da tree properly,da harvest “happen."

Physical satisfactions, yr own desires to be fulfilled, your goal to be accomplished will nt bring us to da fullest of JOY. thankful dat we noe Jesus and enjoying da love of HIS, being forgiven by da mercy and grace of God, hv a privilege to be loved and to love Jesus and his ppl, Jesus died on da cross for all of us.

James 1:2- 4

2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

Tend to your spiritual life, and real joy will simply happen.

Lord, hw crazy is dat? u pouring yr heart wif us, we've got da privilege to get to hear yr words lord. God, we really want thank you for all your very presence to be wif us. letting go our old self and being transformed by you God.
Lord, You are lovely. may we bless you god, i kant imagine living wifout yr grace father. come on lord. come and live in us as we ask and we shall receive.
lord, i ask for an enthusisam to love You and yr ppl more each day. let us pour ourselves out to dem. Let us obey u to please you god.
as you told us to go as we're set free. Das awesome lord. you're da light of ours. we kant live without yr light for a sec god.
father, set us free from our own desire and anxiety lord. May you fill us wif yr spirit to noe yr heart more. yes lord, yes lord. yes god. thanks for yr sweet anointing for de entire nite. u took over all mah emtional buzz god. lord, may we glorify yr name through our weakness god, break it, transform it and use it for your kingdom god.
dis is a new yr for You god, to be honored and praised lord.
we love you God, may we get rid of ourselves and let you engage wif us.
thank you for all yr teachings.
thank you Lord, thank you Jesus.