Hamster on a wheel........
i've been running away from blogging i guess. i was Nowhere. i went through a hard tym dis week.
spiritually dry, mentally exhausted, phyically w
Lack of Joy n peace.
As i mentioned, ive been reli upset and despair dis whole week. i was striving for da Holy SPirit to fill de emptiness of mah soul.
where is mah heart?
Insecurity in me. ive been knocking real hard on da door and asking, where's mah goal?c'mon, i need a vision, i need a goal.
guess wot? da more i ask, da more i m confused. da more i tink, da more frustrated i get.
it's tking me NOwhere, it's nt helping da situation at all. it simply mess it up.
so many tyms i wanted to show mah love towards mah mum and dad, da love to mah frds, share mah life wif dem. but i lost mah motivation, i lost de enthusiasm of loving ppl.
yea, i m nt trying to keep sharing hw faithful i m right here. i did fall. i m nt sharing to stumble you or discourage you or even disappoint you.
it's just part of mah walk wif Jesus.
alright, carry on.
it sounds lyk i hv a crappy week wif heaps of distress.
Breakthrough.
On da way to bible study alone wif a sinking, despairing heart.
amazingly, i was Overwhelmed by wot god has taught me during da bible study.
After some case studying.
QUES:
Are you motivated at work by da need to earn a living or do you have a different sense of purpose?
Have you ever caught yourself wondering, "IS this all?"
well, i kan related to none of da case study. Meanwhile, mah title says it all within dis whole week, all da doubts and a vague sense of uncertainty. "is this gonna be mah life?"
i felt lyk i m a hamster spinning on da wheel which gets me Nowhere. However, ive acknowledged dat I"M NT.
a Hamster spinning on a wheel VS. a hamster running a race on a path.
difference:
HAmster spinning on a wheel is going nowhere. it's frantically spinning but going nowhere.
no matter hw hard it tries, it's still achieving nth. it's nt gonna roll back nor forward.
Hamster running a race on da path. it's going forward. the more faith it has, da further it kan go.
but it's nt gonna help as if it runs by it's own strength. when it falls, dere's someone to pick it up and to move on once again. isn't it too lonely for hamster to run by itself?it needs frds, doesnt it?
What is ABUNDANT life?
How kan it imply both "sufficient" and "excess"?
Jesus offered a much different understanding of de ABUNDANT LIFE. one nt based upon a disparity of wealth. but upon da kingdom of GOD in which everyone shares in da LORD"S abundance.
it drives me to ponder.
i should be thankful all da tym.
cuz of mah own desire, wanting to be back in Perth. hoping of being pampered and surrounded by all de EXCESS love from Zioners. Wishing for doing something greater for GOD lyk going for mission trips. Longing for an end to da circumstances i m in.......
Have i forgotten i m living for mah heavenly father?
am i asking for my own desire?
did i react in a way das pleasing god?
Am i doing all dese cuz i m forced to?
Stagnation VS. Momentum
mah faith was in stagnation for da past week. ive got da hope and faith in God. but i tended to tke it for granted. seriously, i DID. u might be pondering how kan dat happen?
when mah faith in GOD to heal mah dad and pave a better life for my family and i remains dere, are u wif me?JUST stays in a certain level, it's nt moving back nor moving forward.
it's STAGNATION, m i right?
God spoke to me on Wednesday at leadership meeting. God was saying THAT's YOU JOEY,
you've gotta exercise yr Faith.
Stagnation in da bible:Lukewarm, faithless, lacking,
Momentum in da bible:increase, vision, love, full, blessing, favour, stretch,above, honored, all things, anything, supply, victory, abundantly, received, answered.
Evaluations plus Reflections
Matt 24:13
13but he who stands firm to the end will be saved.
He will transform us! He will reveal Himself to us. He will write His own name all over us--inside, outside, all around, and everywhere else.
we will cum down fr de experience wif a glow in our spirit dat will draw others to His light.
it reminds me de amazing encounter wif a gurl who's non believer.
Our presence on earth will be sufficient for sowing and reaping a harvest of souls.
God's love and blessings hv no bounds. His love and goodness is far beyond our understanding.
it seems to be no way. but do we rmb God is LOVE, keep knocking, searching n seeking.
Joy is a fruit of the Spirit. We cannot buy joy, we cannot develop it through hard work, study.
Lord, hw crazy is dat? u pouring yr heart wif us, we've got da privilege to get to hear yr words lord. God, we really want thank you for all your very presence to be wif us. letting go our old self and being transformed by you God.
Lord, You are lovely. may we bless you god, i kant imagine living wifout yr grace father. come on lord. come and live in us as we ask and we shall receive.
lord, i ask for an enthusisam to love You and yr ppl more each day. let us pour ourselves out to dem. Let us obey u to please you god.
as you told us to go as we're set free. Das awesome lord. you're da light of ours. we kant live without yr light for a sec god.
father, set us free from our own desire and anxiety lord. May you fill us wif yr spirit to noe yr heart more. yes lord, yes lord. yes god. thanks for yr sweet anointing for de entire nite. u took over all mah emtional buzz god. lord, may we glorify yr name through our weakness god, break it, transform it and use it for your kingdom god.
dis is a new yr for You god, to be honored and praised lord.
we love you God, may we get rid of ourselves and let you engage wif us.
thank you for all yr teachings.
thank you Lord, thank you Jesus.
i've been running away from blogging i guess. i was Nowhere. i went through a hard tym dis week.
spiritually dry, mentally exhausted, phyically w
Lack of Joy n peace.
As i mentioned, ive been reli upset and despair dis whole week. i was striving for da Holy SPirit to fill de emptiness of mah soul.
where is mah heart?
Insecurity in me. ive been knocking real hard on da door and asking, where's mah goal?c'mon, i need a vision, i need a goal.
guess wot? da more i ask, da more i m confused. da more i tink, da more frustrated i get.
it's tking me NOwhere, it's nt helping da situation at all. it simply mess it up.
so many tyms i wanted to show mah love towards mah mum and dad, da love to mah frds, share mah life wif dem. but i lost mah motivation, i lost de enthusiasm of loving ppl.
yea, i m nt trying to keep sharing hw faithful i m right here. i did fall. i m nt sharing to stumble you or discourage you or even disappoint you.
it's just part of mah walk wif Jesus.
alright, carry on.
it sounds lyk i hv a crappy week wif heaps of distress.
Breakthrough.
On da way to bible study alone wif a sinking, despairing heart.
amazingly, i was Overwhelmed by wot god has taught me during da bible study.
After some case studying.
QUES:
Are you motivated at work by da need to earn a living or do you have a different sense of purpose?
Have you ever caught yourself wondering, "IS this all?"
well, i kan related to none of da case study. Meanwhile, mah title says it all within dis whole week, all da doubts and a vague sense of uncertainty. "is this gonna be mah life?"
i felt lyk i m a hamster spinning on da wheel which gets me Nowhere. However, ive acknowledged dat I"M NT.
a Hamster spinning on a wheel VS. a hamster running a race on a path.
difference:
HAmster spinning on a wheel is going nowhere. it's frantically spinning but going nowhere.
no matter hw hard it tries, it's still achieving nth. it's nt gonna roll back nor forward.
Hamster running a race on da path. it's going forward. the more faith it has, da further it kan go.
but it's nt gonna help as if it runs by it's own strength. when it falls, dere's someone to pick it up and to move on once again. isn't it too lonely for hamster to run by itself?it needs frds, doesnt it?
What is ABUNDANT life?
How kan it imply both "sufficient" and "excess"?
Jesus offered a much different understanding of de ABUNDANT LIFE. one nt based upon a disparity of wealth. but upon da kingdom of GOD in which everyone shares in da LORD"S abundance.
it drives me to ponder.
i should be thankful all da tym.
cuz of mah own desire, wanting to be back in Perth. hoping of being pampered and surrounded by all de EXCESS love from Zioners. Wishing for doing something greater for GOD lyk going for mission trips. Longing for an end to da circumstances i m in.......
Have i forgotten i m living for mah heavenly father?
am i asking for my own desire?
did i react in a way das pleasing god?
Am i doing all dese cuz i m forced to?
Stagnation VS. Momentum
mah faith was in stagnation for da past week. ive got da hope and faith in God. but i tended to tke it for granted. seriously, i DID. u might be pondering how kan dat happen?
when mah faith in GOD to heal mah dad and pave a better life for my family and i remains dere, are u wif me?JUST stays in a certain level, it's nt moving back nor moving forward.
it's STAGNATION, m i right?
God spoke to me on Wednesday at leadership meeting. God was saying THAT's YOU JOEY,
you've gotta exercise yr Faith.
Stagnation in da bible:Lukewarm, faithless, lacking,
Momentum in da bible:increase, vision, love, full, blessing, favour, stretch,above, honored, all things, anything, supply, victory, abundantly, received, answered.
Evaluations plus Reflections
Matt 24:13
13but he who stands firm to the end will be saved.
God's love is vy vy real, but it is not an emotion. It is not a feeling. It is not a romantic adventure.God himself is LOVE.
When God loves, things change,right?
He will transform us! He will reveal Himself to us. He will write His own name all over us--inside, outside, all around, and everywhere else.
we will cum down fr de experience wif a glow in our spirit dat will draw others to His light.
it reminds me de amazing encounter wif a gurl who's non believer.
Our presence on earth will be sufficient for sowing and reaping a harvest of souls.
God's love and blessings hv no bounds. His love and goodness is far beyond our understanding.
it seems to be no way. but do we rmb God is LOVE, keep knocking, searching n seeking.
Joy is a fruit of the Spirit. We cannot buy joy, we cannot develop it through hard work, study.
Weve gotta understand real joy is nt depend upon our circumstances. If attaining a lifestyle of joy depends upon getting everything right, we will surely die. Spiritual joy is independent of our circumstances in life. it's hard.
Blossoms=healing??!!!
Where does real joy come from?dad being healed?returning back to perth?
When we want to harvest , we dun begin wif blossoms. we begin wif a tree n sum dirt. planting da tree, water it, n fertilize da ground around it. But if we plant da tree properly,da harvest “happen."
Physical satisfactions, yr own desires to be fulfilled, your goal to be accomplished will nt bring us to da fullest of JOY. thankful dat we noe Jesus and enjoying da love of HIS, being forgiven by da mercy and grace of God, hv a privilege to be loved and to love Jesus and his ppl, Jesus died on da cross for all of us.
James 1:2- 4
2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
Tend to your spiritual life, and real joy will simply happen.
Lord, hw crazy is dat? u pouring yr heart wif us, we've got da privilege to get to hear yr words lord. God, we really want thank you for all your very presence to be wif us. letting go our old self and being transformed by you God.
Lord, You are lovely. may we bless you god, i kant imagine living wifout yr grace father. come on lord. come and live in us as we ask and we shall receive.
lord, i ask for an enthusisam to love You and yr ppl more each day. let us pour ourselves out to dem. Let us obey u to please you god.
as you told us to go as we're set free. Das awesome lord. you're da light of ours. we kant live without yr light for a sec god.
father, set us free from our own desire and anxiety lord. May you fill us wif yr spirit to noe yr heart more. yes lord, yes lord. yes god. thanks for yr sweet anointing for de entire nite. u took over all mah emtional buzz god. lord, may we glorify yr name through our weakness god, break it, transform it and use it for your kingdom god.
dis is a new yr for You god, to be honored and praised lord.
we love you God, may we get rid of ourselves and let you engage wif us.
thank you for all yr teachings.
thank you Lord, thank you Jesus.
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