Spiritual CYCLE

i guess i m getting to da mood to Blog rite now.
since 1sth of Jan, i found myself got into NON HOly CYCle dis whole week. but wait a min, dun get me wrong, i did do mah quiet tym as usual. i hv no idea wot's wrong wif me, i seems lyk dwelling NOwhere. yep. NOWHERE. i felt lost n frustrated most of da tym during dis week.

i guess it's all back to da fact dat wen everything is too uncertain in life.Thus, i m lost in real life, wen i look at da coming year, i feel absolutely lost. das exactly da way i m nt supposed to tink n behave. why am i worry for tomorrow.

Matthew 6:34 (New International Version)

New International Version (NIV)

34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

but i m doing exactly de opposite during da week.
i was easily got frustrated, moody and lyk floating. dude, seriously i felt lyk i was floating and nt able to walk straight hey. i noe it sounds hilarious n RIdiculous.
but it's true.

m i losing da hope? NOPE. m i nt trusting God anymore?NOPE.

but i felt lyk i m in a stable mood n i felt lyk i remain in an unfluctuating stage.

Man, i noe it's my prob and das sth i gotta deal wif God.
Joey, Persevere girl. dun give up. GOD is definitely watching over you. Have da faith and dun get burnt out but burnt ON for HIM.

some Updates bout dad.

He didn't get any better in his ACute Myelogenous Leukemia. His white blood cells level is still below normal since da past entire month. The first chemotherapy treatment didnt bring da disease into remission at all as da numbers of cancer cells are keeping increasing . therefore,
An allogeneic transplant might be needed. he's gonna see da doctor again on da coming wednesday. o ya, One more thing, dad has infections (where da tube connected to da vein on his chest) . according to da doctor, dis is a worse part to get infection. oh man, dad really gets all da worse stuffs.

1 Corinthians 15:53-55

For the perishable must clothe itself with the imperishable, and the mortal with immortality. When the perishable has been clothed with the imperishable, and the mortal with immortality, then the saying that is written will come true: "Death has been swallowed up in victory."

"Where, O death, is your victory?
Where, O death, is your sting?"

As we are fasting for dis month as a church for 2007.
wot i kan tink of is Keep going, keep knocking, keep doing. Prepare, prepare, prepare.
i m imagining one day God is gonna smash into our life, shake us for a moment, an hour, or maybe even a day or so. But when His spirit becomes quiet again, we will be a different person.

God neva tries to give us more gd or bad ?????????????than we are prepared to handle.

HOPing WOT?? TOTAL CURE?

Yes i m hoping for a complete turn-around. I've seen it,( salvations of mah parents which i used to tink which was pretty impossible) .......................